The violence

The violence of it all

The violence of your pain, your trauma being so normal that it is a debate

It's a debate whether you should have died

It's a debate whether your trauma and abuse are abuse

The violence of it all to debate about your humanity

The violence of it all, that you no longer have language to describe your trauma

The violence of it all that while you are the one who is dead, who is abused, yet it's your character on trial

The violence of it all that while you are the one being abused and killed, they are the one's afraid of you and see you as dangerous

The violence of it all, for them to say that we shouldn't judge them for what their ancestors did when that system is still doing the same things to you right now.

The violence of it all, for them to demand forgiveness without acknowledging that trauma lives in bodies and it's bodies that birth children

The violence of it all that the only stories they want to hear are stories of how resilient you are as a result of their abuse

The violence of it all, that they would become so immuned to you being dead.